I had such a great holiday.. Went home for a month and now I am back to reality. I feel blank, so blurrrrrr... Really want to finish my research as soon as I can.., but I can't even see the light at the end of the tunnel yet. I have no idea where I am. Sometime I feel like giving up. I know, however, that giving up is not an option. Being a scientist, you are bombarded by the pressure of writing papers, publications, reports. Performance, performance, performance! I know, even after I finish my PhD, the journey is not over yet. I want this journey written and so one day, before I give up being a scientist, I will read this all over again and see whether it is worth going on or giving up. Publication Nightmares I've just had my second and third papers returned for major revission. So sad! I really don't have any mood to change it. I dun like to justify my work. I want the reviewers to accept it just as it is. I wished!!!! There's never such an easy way rite. Now I dun even know what to do with the rest of my research. None of the equipment in the Lab is available for use. Phuh.. really lost. Challenge after challenge! The good thing about going through all these challenges are that you learn to appreciate many things around you. If only Life is meant to be easy.. then when we get what we want, will we still enjoy it? But does it worth it? I guess it does.. Don't give up
"Today will never be repeated again.. Live like you really mean it" Oh well just to update about my last paper. They finally accept it after one revision. I feel good and bloody fantastic. Well it does worth it! Worth all the effort. It reminds me of one thing.. never stop trying.. There's this one add on TV which says "Today will never be repeated again.. Live like you really mean it" I found that quote very true.. So GAMBATee live your life to the fullest.. (Posted: February 6, 2006 07:00 PM)
Cramped with works Me again.....Hiks.. Things are getting harder and harder lately. I was looking at the calender and I realized that I only have "One more year to go". Can I make it? I have to apply for a funding to support my travelling to the conference this year. The due date is next week and I haven't start doing anything. I have a meeting with my supervisor next week and I also haven't prepare it. I have a few papers to submit, but I haven't make any correction yet. I have send a few abstracts for competition, but I haven't start compiling my data. I have so many cheese to be analyzed, sensory evaluation to be performed. I have to go to DSTO to confirm my findings.. but I don't even dare to call the lab managers. Oh no... (Posted: February 8, 2006 03:55 PM)
Permanent Head Damaged hohoho... It's end of march. Next year in march, I have to submit my thesis? I hope so. Meanwhile, I am just trying to enjoy the journey before it's all over. One of my friend said, as soon as you finish your PhD, you are going to suffer a PERMANENT HEAD DAMAGED and I guess all of us have started to experience the symptoms of PhD. I went to the lab this morning without any plan in my head. Well, like I ever had one!!! I was just bored and I guess I was not the only one who felt bored doing unexciting conservative research everyday. We came up to this idea of adding a little bit of flavour to our research, so we started making blue colour beads of probiotic. "Blue" for skinny probiotic and "pink" for probiotic that could prevent cancer and reduce hypertension. This was our plan, all the beads will be incorporated into bubble tea and chocolate with an aim to challenge lucky cups and fredo rice chocolate. Of course none of our crazy ideas worked and we ended up throwing the beads to the sink. At least the fishes get the chance of tasting the nutritious probiotic. 'If the fishes do eat the probiotic beads' then we gonna have "PROBIOTIC FISH". We would save the world.. everyone that eat fish in the next couple of years gonna be skinny and healthy.. Oh well, that's our claim... but unlike the scientific paper that we wrote, we have no proof but to quote future Prof Min tze and future Ding PhD (I mean -- the real Permanent Head Damage) hauhau. Okay, if you are trying to read my craps and have no clue what I'm talking about. Don't worry.. it's just the symptoms of PhD. hehe.. GAMBATEE everyone (In the middle of difficulties lies opportunities). (Posted : March 23, 2006 03:59 AM)
Stop and Think Hi... It's May.. what's been happening? I started driving :P a couple weeks ago hehe.. Another good news today! Mm remmember about the Secomb conference and travel grant thingy? I got it! yeah.. I'm goingt to get some extra money to cover for my accomodation and VISA to US. A couple months ago in February, I worried about my abstract being rejected from the conference, worried about not getting funding. Now...I'm glad that it's all settled.. I got a couple of my abstracts accepted and I got my funding all fixed. Well but the journey is not over yet.. there will be more and more challenges that will come one after the other. I have to prepare my presentations, start compiling my data and submit my thesis. And again, there is also this fear of what's life gonna be after graduation. There will never be an end huh. I guess, we should all stop at one point and look at what we already have, and BE APPRECIATIVE. Count our blessings and just don't ever stop enjoying the journey!! GAMBATEE (Posted May 4, 2006 07:21 AM )
Oh yeah, forgot to mention.. I'm going backpacking alone next month! hikssssss.. Scary. If I dun update this blog by July, go and search for me ya.. :P The LOST CHICKEN. (Posted May 4, 2006 07:30 AM)
CHICKEN Hohohoho.. almost got an accident at the intersection between bowen lane and St. kilda road this morning..serem :{{. It was my fault .. Well, but my reflect was not bad at all lor.. so nothing happened. But next time I have to be extra carefull.. Hei.. I got another great news..What should I say? Actually it's a scarry news for me.. They selected my abstract for Graduate research paper competition di conference Orlando next month.. I really dunno what to do. Giving a presentation is not my piece of cake. With my crappy english, very boring results, I am certainly not feeling any good. I'm so not ready for this!!! FEARRR.. lot's of fear.. That's why people call me a "CHICKEN" cause I always feel scared about new things.. In fact, not only new things.. but many things. Phuh..but I have to be able to go through this. GAMBATEEEEE...(Posted May 10, 2006 05:26 AM)
The whole trip to US is the ultimate prize Hi again.. I dunno why I keep writing my blog, although I know that nobody gonna read this. Hei.. I just turned 25. Scarry but true.. Thanks for everyone support during the past few years. I'm going to the US tomorrow. Gambatee me okay. Hope to win the prize :P. If I don't win, well no regret..the whole trip is already the ultimate prize. Can't wait to see my old fren in Arizona. Hope everything goes well with everyone. Cheers. (Posted June 15, 2006 11:27 PM)
Back Home Hi.. I'm back home. Now I really feel that I'm talking to myself hahah. Good:P The trip was great. It was fantastic, except for the triple SSS check for overseas travellers! I really enjoyed it.. I went to LA, Arizona, San Frans, Orlando, Jersey, New York, Philadelphia and Washington.. I will write a bit more about the trip later.. my gosh, I have a very bad jet lag today. Good news is, I got the Manfred Kroger Award, It was shocking but true, unreal. Feel gratefull really. I just want to thank everyone for their support.. though they may not be reading this... Thanks to all. Life is series of journey. Let's enjoy it :P. It's WORTH it. (Posted July 5, 2006 08:05 PM)
Reality hits me hard Hi... I have just finished uploading my photos at the imagestation.com. I'm not sure if general public can view it without my invitation. Well.. I'll figure out how. Now that i'm back to reality. phuh.. reality hits me hard haha. As if LOL. My works are pilling like the huge mount everest. So steep and so cold.. man, it looks so impossible to conquer it. But to start with, I just received another good news, my third paper is on the way. Great, feel so happy about it. I'm working on a few others and of course on my thesis. I will never stop talking about this, not at least until jully next year haha. Bare with me..
Japanese Professor On my way to Orlando from San Frans, I was sitting next to a Japanese professor. We had a long chat, I mean.. he did. He told me about his work.. he said, he was helping the old and blind people bla bla bla. Using common terms that a scientist would use when they talk to general public. So initially I thought, he was working as a social worker. Then when I told him that I was doing my PhD, he started to re-explain what he was doing in alien words. He told me that he was developing a sort of digital lenses for people with sight dissability. I guess, sort of merging nanotechnology, digital science and bioscience together. Wow, imagine one day, blind people can see with a digital eyes.. or old people can read without their double convocal glasses. Just by inserting a nanotech wire into your retina. AMAZING. Ghee "If only my work would be that interesting hehe." The prof asked me if i wanted to become a prof one day. And without thinking, I said a blunt "NO". I told him that I wanted to have a simple life, a less stressfull job, something easy. He replied, "then this is a rite job for you". I was shocked. No way research is simple and easy. He was laughing, "Look at my hair. It is still there. All of it". Bending his head to me and proudly messing them up. Ghee.. he was the first prof I saw with all his hair still on his head. Must be fake! "Do you know what is the key to success?" I was nodding then I changed my mind.. I shook my head. Well If I said yes, he would ask me what and I have to give him my humble and invaluable theory of success. So I rather said "no". "PASSION..... If you have passion in whatever things that you are doing, you will get there. Passion is your fuel. It will motivate you to move forward, to work hard and most importantly to enjoy your job."
Then he continued, "Every job has its own challenges. There's no so called - easy job, simple life. It is the way you look at it that makes the difference" I guess whatever he told me was rite by miles.. I guess, it's "the way" I look at my job. It's the fuel that I use to move my car that matters. PASSION :P.. From now on, everytime before you start your car, fill it with the fuel with brand "Passion" not unleaded or optimax. Then as you move along your journey, enjoy it man! Focus on your own road and not others. Everybody has their own pace..but sooner or later, we will all get somewhere. Life is a series of journey. Oki doki.. I gtg. Cheers (Posted July 8, 2006 05:27 PM)
Not in the mood of doing anything. I'm so dead.... so blurr.... so everywhere.... can't think and write.. (Posted July 24, 2006 10:04 PM)
No turning back Back in front of the computer with the radio on.. SOSP... Love this station so much, mix 101.1. Rocks. It's August now. I'm half way to mount everest. There's no turning back and no way to give up. blurp. 6 months before the "DAY", probably a year before my next "TRIP", my next adventure. My next adventure will be hopefully in Sweden - the so called "Ikea Lab", the blue and yellow lab. I hope so.. cause I really hate working in a borring lab. Well.. I shouldn't be dreaming as yet. Need to focus on the "DAY".. 3rd March 2007. Guess what.. This morning I was called to my court room (as in my supervisor's office), only to find out that a few people have actually complained about me. Glek :P I'm so not used to this. Be the BULIER is kinda wierd but not so bad at all really. Ups.. Someone actually complain about how I dominated the use of equipments in the Lab. Hehhe.. 'Wierd' because I haven't been working in the lab that much ever since I came back from the US. Must be my twin or another girl who look like me (:O another chicken LOL)... The other complain was about the fact that I always play the radio too loud and maybe talk too much. Upss.. that's scarry :O I'm just trying to have fun..and I thought I have been so considerate.. But maybe not :P. Well no hurt feelings... I'm glad they did complained about me. That's me and to whoever I offended.. I'm so sorry mate! I just wished that they came to talk to me. (Posted August 1, 2006 05:14 AM)
The rollercoaster ride continues It's 18th of September.... Time is ticking fast. As for my uni stuff.. It's been very tense and scarry. I had lots of pressure from everywhere, from myself, from time, from my supervisor. It's like riding a rollercoaster train. I submitted paper 4 last month and only now I found out that I did a few mistakes. Ghee.. I haven't tell my supervisor yet. I dun have the courage and the guts.. but eventually I have to do it sooner or later. Can't be a chicken, can I? Well, once I change the result of P4, I'm looking forward to submit my super long PART A, B, C paper. I'm still stuck at B. Well, please remind me to work hard. I really need to get all 7 papers out before October (that's when I will have to do my final analysis for my last experiment). It's going to be a bussy month and so GAMBATE!! Another 5 months before submitting Thesis. Hopefully I can make it! Sorry for this borring update.. This is part of my life that I couldn't share with anyone cause people will run away the moment I talk about uni. So I'll stuff all the rubbish here and thus leaving ample of space for fun in my brain... ehhehehe... Really, these things shouldn't go home with me. GAMBATE! (Posted September 18, 2006 12:20 AM)
Student's meal What will happen if you have only spagetti and pasta for the whole two weeks? Pluz with lots of cream and cheese? Gambateeee to the student's meal!!! :P (Posted September 25, 2006 07:20 PM)
Short reflection Btw.. my part B is done done! Feel so good about it. I'm struggling with part C now. Well, for now, I thought I should just stop worrying about my paper and take a break to thank many2 people that has put up with me lately. My family... I know I hardly talk to any one of you, but deep down, I miss you guys terribly. Mom, dad.. my bro and sis, and of course my future niece. My lil bro, you've been so cute and so supportive, make me laugh and bussy every day. Can't imagine my life in melbourne without you. My friends, pang.. no matter what falls upon me, I know you are going to rescue me... although sometime you drive me to Burnley tunnel.. Thanks for being there. Uk, ar ci... for the encouragements.. thanks, it's been so inspiring. Life would never be the same without both of you. Cat, Julia, Beth.. I had great times every evening because of you gals.. distract me from uni and laugh with me.. cheering me and add colours to my otherwise boring life. Ariani... hahaha... thanks for all the wonderful memories. Girl.. you've always motivate me to do my best, but at the same time teaching me to be content with my life. Who else.., tooo manyyyy. Anyway I gtg to a weekend get away!.. APOLLO bay.. I'm coming. (Posted September 29, 2006 01:55 AM)
Down Hill Hi again...Today is a very discouraging day for me. Really sad :(. One of my papers was rejected by Journal of Dairy Science. Feel so terribly sad. I guess I have to get used to this. Things are going down the hill eversince I submitted my first paper. From excellent paper, to good paper, to major revision paper and now rejected paper. I'm in total fear. I'm just about to submit another 2 papers and I feel so scared that they are going to be rejected as well. I feel really down and start munching lots of chocolate and twisties. I'm supposed to do lots of lab works today, but instead, I'm sitting in the library, doing nothing. I hate all this.. I really dun feel like doing it anymore. Yesterday I was writting to my sister and tell her that in the middle of difficulties lies opportunities. Well, honestly.. when you are in this kind of situation, things are becoming so blurry and faded.. so dark.. it so hard to see any glimpse of hope. Yesterday I also told her that we shouldn't give up no mattter how many failures we have to face. Guess what, I feel so scare to even stand up again.. fear that I may fall down again. But giving in to my fear is not an option. Ghee... this is hard.
But I have a good news. One of my friends sent me a text message yesterday. It means a lot to me. Maybe because it is from her. Well I hate to write the story here but bottom line, we were having a bit of misunderstanding a while ago. I was being such a jerk for not standing up for myself which led to a few misunderstanding that hurted her feelings. Well, it's the past really! All I can say is, she means a lot to me. I've been trying to reach her for months without any luck. I was feeling kinda lost cause I really want to make sure if everything is okay. I mean, even if we have to stay away from each other, at least we are still friends and tat we not keeping any hurt feelings inside of us. That's why this SMS means a lot to me, knowing that we are ready to face our problems. Well if she ever reads this, "thank you for not giving up on me and for understanding me. I know things were quite rough here and there, but you've never leave me. When I thought I should give up on many things, there's this tiny little fire flies that fly over me which I beleive is your love and friendship. When it's so dark, this fire flies appear brighter and brighter when I beleive in it... when I have faith in it. Yeah, I know that glimpse of light will help me to slowly crawl out of this scarry tunnel". Well.. I dunno what to say anymore. I have to fight again. Friendship forever. Him Nae Him... (Posted October 3, 2006 09:32 PM )
My Lovely Bro Hi again... It's 7/10/06. My bro went back to Indo for Holiday and he left me this note: To: Ocie (the best ocie in this world, love you, ocie yang lucu)"Ocie!! hehe.. Budi dah mau ampe Indo lor.. Fiuh :" Budi beli postcard seharga 20 cent. Pertama seh mau buat teman. Tapi ga jadi ar. Buat ocie aja :P. Ocie take care ya, maju terus secara rohani. Budi juga. Mulai hari ini Budi mau jadi lebih dewasa soalnya Budi dah 17!!!. Nanti Budi balek dah bisa msak yang enak lor. hehe Ocie ga papakan sendirian. Yah jadianya gak masak lage deh. Wah pasti jadi kurus. Well pokoknya ocie sehat2 deh. Wish you the best. Ingat terus Allah Yehuwa and take care. Sehat jasmani dan rohani. hhuhu. gak bisa membayangkan kalo ga ada ocie. (Posted October 8, 2006 04:46 AM)
Mizz Home Guess what I ended up doing after reading his notes. Hiks hiks.. Well my bro, thanks so much for your love. Love you too. Love you from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry if sometimes I take things for granted. Now I really miss everyone back home. Being alone, stuck in my own little world really make me realize how my life without my family means nothing. I can't wait to go back, but I have to finish my journey. It'll be hard, it'll be tough..But I'll be strong.. cause I have God and my family n frens. You guys may be physically miles away.. but for me.. every single one of you is within me, close to my heart. Thanks (Posted October 8, 2006 04:59 AM)
Endurance My journey is almost done..Btw, it's almost the end of the year. I really struggle a lot to complete my lab work and my thesis. The closser I get to the finish line, I feel that I'm in this running competition. "Hang in there lyd.. Gambateeee!! I can hear that screams everywhere as I'm doing my final lap of running. My heart is pumping fast, my muscle is soaring, aching and screaming for me to stop. My throat is burning dry..exhausted and the whole body is falling apart. The heat is so intense, can't even open my eyes wide. I try to maintain my pace.. try to focus, but I can't. But stopping now is not an option. So i try to keep my head up, dragging my feet step by step..one inch at a time. I know I have to finish this. A few more minutes to go. Hang in there" (Posted November 8, 2006 08:33 PM)
Extenstion to submission date I've got the extension till the 1st of August. I'm actually feeling a bit relax now as i dun really have to rush to finish my thesis. But i do want to finish it as soon as I can and move on. Last week, I've been working pretty hard eheh. I finally finished my fourth paper. Fixing all the mistakes and I actually feel a lot more confident now. As in I know this time, it's going to be a lot better than last time. So hopefully it will be accepted by Le Lait journal. So happy. 3 more paper to go. Meanwhile I have also started writting my thesis. Just cover page and minor22 things. I feel a lot more confident that I can finish my journey. Other than that.. we'll see :P So december gonna be a very bussy month for me, pluzz my sis is coming from Indo. Can't wait to spend time with her as well. It will be a nice break.. nice time to catch up. (Posted November 30, 2006 02:41 PM)
Feeling Blank I'm feeling so blank lately. I am happy and have been having a lot of fun, but I am still feeling blank. Just to update what's been happening..it's 6Dec. I had my final driving course, as in I'm ready for my driving test soon. Full liscence soon. All pinkers were in Indo. Maybe that's why I feel so blank, but soon I am not going to feel lonely anymore cause my friend is coming to visit.
It's wierd. My friend is here. It's like a dream. But I'm really happy that she is here. I dunno what to write about her, but she's 'funny' ehhe. I am so happy (Posted December 5, 2006 06:48 PM)
My friend and Sis Huhuhu..8thDec06. I'm preparing more abstracts for the Malcom Bird award. AIFST and IDF would be my last conferences for my PhD. After that, I don't know what's going to happen. hehe. Well.. life has been great lately. My sister is here and we had so much fun doing stuff together. We have our own life, different dreams, priorities and friends but we still enjoy each other company. This friendship that we have really teaches me something that sometimes you have to leave a space for your friend. Let them breath and grow with their dream and life. Time and distances had probably made us feel that we were missing out and no longer was apart of each other life. There were times when we probably had to keep our faith challenged as we hang in something empty and blank. Good times, rough times, yes we've seen it all and will probably see more. Our friendship hasn't been smooth all the way, and yes.. it will probably be rough in the future. But we learned and we'll understand more things as we continue our journey never give up on each other. Keep things simple but fun right! I had this very good quote that motivate me to be positive and happy everyday. "Give your love to God and have love for one another and expect nothing in return" (Posted December 7, 2006 06:14 PM)
Happy Summer Happy happy... "Live life to the fullest". I still remmember the time when I hold myself back from doing something because of fear or other reasons.. the times when I didn't do things because I thought there would still be tomorrow. Yep.. many things left unsaid and undone...It's not that i regrett it now.. I just want to make up for it (is that the rite word :P..). I haven't call my mom and dad for a while.. I have never told them how much I love them. How much I miss them everyday. I thought those kind of feeling shouldn't be shown. I don't know. Well.. I'll talk more later.. I'm really sorry but I have to go now.. somebody will scream at me if I don't go to have shower now. hehe .. brb (Posted December 8, 2006 05:17 PM)
Fake cakes Now, my sis is sitting right beside me.. She is playing with her hair (plok plok ^_O) hehe... I have nothing to say today. So full, especially after having 3 slices of pizza with caesar salad, lots of parmesan cheese and anchovies. Those sodium chloride really dried me out.. ghee, have been drinking so much, non stop but..... LOVE it! Yummy. hehe.. gt be serious huh. The Patent. I'm not sure whether it's worth getting.. Another mount everest! Kind of tired. I just want to lay back and relax. Seriously, I think I have got enough to finish my PhD..... tet tot, break. I gt tell u something, my sis had a cafe, I'm not sure what it is.. looks like a dely or a bakery...Dead serious! She has been working very hard lately! I really want to help her, but I can't. Hikss.. so sad :(. I'm sitting on my bed, watching her serving hundreds and hundreds of customers and selling fake cakes...I've been waiting for hours and hours but she never serve me any cakes....stingy hor! Okay, she is telling me to shut up cause she needs to concentrate with her shop, oh...the food critic is coming.. grgh, hehe...:P okay.. bek to the patent thingy. I dun want another mount everest. wat to do! Hai ya.. dun want to think about it first. Gtg... have to figure out how to help her selling fake cakes hhhehehehe. (Posted December 10, 2006 01:57 AM)
Keeping up with spiritual needs I am doing my paper no 7. It should be my favourite paper. No.7 hehe. I plan a to submit it before the end of the year. I think I can do it. I'm all for it! My sis is not here today. I dun want her to go.. not now.. not next wk.. not next month..Hiks, hehe.. well, i guess she has to take care of her coffee shop.. The last time I visited her, the coffee shop is already on the beach side. Mm she must have been making quite a fair bit of money. I will force her to buy me dinner deh! ciciiiiiiiiii :P I'm reading Isaiah book at the moment. Love it.. it's a tough book.. but a very interesting one!!!! I hope I can continue doing whatever I'm doing at the moment. Reading the bible at a regular basis really help me to stay focus. I should never compromise this routine for something else. Although it can be tough sometimes.. reading the bible daily really help me to keep my life simple. Love it! Oh God, thank you so much for this wonderful gifts of Life, of Love, of Family and Friends. May you please guard my heart and my soul that I may always serve you forever and ever. (Posted December 11, 2006 02:13 AM )
Sand Castles Sandwich with ham... sundried tomato, mushroom, cheese and salads... That's what I'm having at the moment. It tastes so good. Yummy :P. + a cup of orange juice.. That's the best combination of lunch. I want more!!! What about toasted muffin with ham or nuttella and a touch of smille :P Phiuh... It's December. Time kinda flies. I'm trying to slow down a bit but..time really has no mercy on me.. It would be nice if I can stop the time.. Enjoying the moment, my breakfast, my lunch.. or simply relaxing on the beach side, burrying myself inside the sand. Mm but hold on, that would be scarry. What if the sand worms or the sea crabs crawl over my nose. I would sneeze till the heaven drops hehe. I have had great2 holidays over the past few months. But I really can't wait to go for another one. Sand castles..Built not for eternity.Or even for a day.Enjoyed in the making.Only to be knocked down. By an errant gesture. An unexpected breeze.The inexorable tide. Leaving us to start again. With one bucket of sand Sand castles..Sculpted by mighty hands. With love so carefully.They stand with walls of majestyFor those around to gaze,Then are flattened by the crashing waves,‘Till nothing left remains.
Enjoy the journey in the making, never give up! (Posted December 14, 2006 06:17 PM)
Enjoy the journey in the making, never give up! (Posted December 14, 2006 06:17 PM)
End of the year The year is ending.. and tomorrow we will all wake up, building another sand castles. Let's have fun friends. Build a colourful one. Set a meaningful goal and dream. But always keep our eyes simple :P.Dreams are made of clouds And waves with silvery crests.Dreams are made of star dust And touch with a warm caress.Dreams are made of love And hopes you can't forget.Dreams can keep you going.When there is nothing left.
My dreams have kept me goingThrough long and lonely years.Dreams have kept my faith aliveAnd dried my many tears.But dreams are gone by morningAnd daylight brings new fears,That my castle walls will crumbleAnd leave me standing here. My castles may be made of sandAnd won't stand the test of time.At least I dared to dreamAnd the memories are all mine.For if you can not dream,If you dare not cross the lineInto hopes and promisesBoth subtle and sublime;Your life will be as emptyAs that lonely stretch of land,Without even the beautyOf a castle made of sand. Dun feel scared Lyd :PGambateee.. Him Nae Him! (Posted December 14, 2006 06:27 PM)
MONDAY.. 18th Dec 2006. 10.59 Monday is certainly not the coolest day of all. My friend told me once that if he were to be a prime minister, he would extend the weekend to Monday. Oh well, let's wait for that never to come day! 11.00My hair is everywhere.. I'm not a big fan of convertible now! well, I used to! I find it very silly to have ourself cooked under the sun and to have the wind messing up our hair. Free hair blow with a guarantee 'mushroom' shape. I bet if they allow a few birds to fly inside the library, I would find them nesting on my head without hesitation. I would have free birdy eggs all morning then! 11:10First dilemma for the day...I have a box of mix-salad starring at me since I started this blog. Eat me, eat me now! Glek, now or later... it's really torturing, glek :P. Torturing! (Posted December 17, 2006 04:02 PM)
Pedometer 10.50 1001 steps.. I dun think my pedometer is working correctly. The only thing that I did this morning was walking from the car park to the library. Hmm.. eniwei, have anyone heard about the new NIKE-IPOD. It is so kewl. It will detect not only the amount of steps you make, but also the distance. Pluzz It detects the pace of your exercise and change the songs from your IPOD according to your pace. Great isn't it. But is it worth the price? 10.55 Okay, back to my paper writting thingy. The vacuum pump of the MALDI-TOF is not working properly. Ghee.. I really need the result urgently.. Meanwhile, I probably just write a comprehensive review.. "Probiotic Cheddar cheese". If anyone is interested to see what I'm actually doing, visit my paper at sciencedirect.com. Ok.. gambate! (Posted December 18, 2006 04:01 PM )
Fast Scrabble..This game is a real YOGA for BRAIN! Breathe in, take 7 letters, strech your brain, twist the letters and form any word, breathe out..release. METEOR, QUEST, TI,... Breathe in again, take two, collect the heat, maintain it, feel the pressure as your opponent said "TAKE TWO" before you chain more words. Breathe in, focus, use the heat, twist your brain faster and release the rush of your breath and quickly call "TAKE TWO" before your opponents. So on and on...it's surely worth trying..a real yoga for brain ehehhe. 10.24I have 2 stacks of sandwiches with ham, rocket and mustard in wholemeal helgas bread. YUMMY! Make me ready for my paper writting today. At least one full introduction for my paper. My pedometer is only showing 772 steps. Still a long way to go GAMBATE :P. (Posted December 19, 2006 03:43 PM)
11.42 So sleepy today.. Yesterday we went to TGI-F to have the best fried mushroom in the world... then after that to Borders then to Greco. Interesting quote for today:"When you part from your friend, you grieve not. For That which you love in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain." Nice quote, isn't it! I don't have my pedometer today. There is less smoke, quite warm reaching possibly top of 35. I have put on banana boat, forgotten my sunny but it's all good. Have 4 stacks of sandwiches.. 2 with nutella and of cuz my favourite ham and oh.. today it has beetroot in it. Yep..still doing my paper :(. phuh...Gambatee!! (Posted December 20, 2006 04:54 PM )
2006 Last day at Uni before 2007..It was a year ago, when I started writing this blog and I'm glad that I'm still writing it. It's not a complete journey of my PhD life.. I wished I had started this blog earlier. Reading this blog all over again was very amusing. There were times when I was so down that I couldn't even write a single paragaraf. Starring at the screen doing nothing.. There were times when I was so mad at myself, felt so guilty over many things especially when I wasn't trying my best, when I hurted people that I care.. Many time when I thought I should give up, especially when I fell into the same holes or did the same mistakes. There were times when crawling back up were not so easy. There were many fears, fear of falling back again, fear of getting hurted again. Worse to that, when I thought I should give it another go.. nothing seemed to work right. There was time when I chose just to stay still. I thought If I hadn't do anything then I wouldn't fall. And that was the time when I started to ask myself.. "Is all the pain, all the hardwork, all the crawling back .. WORTH it?"
There is only one thing that I can say at this moment:
It's WORTH it!
Never give up, Never stay still,Go forward, gain your momentum and keep your balance. As always, give your first love to God and love one another and expect nothing in return. HOHOHO.. Be Happy :P, cute cute and enjoy our Journey... (Posted December 21, 2006 04:12 PM)
2007 23:45 I'm so sleepy.. but let's see how my brain works when I'm half dead. I'm quite certain that today is the 1st January 2007. Last day of my end of the year break hiks.. Well, tomorrow my journey is still continuing.. Shouldn't give up... My Sis bought me a book "The Happiest Day of My Life." Great book.. It's a lovely little book, with a simple, beautiful message. "Enjoy every moment" says the book! Have I? My life has been very ordinary.. very casual, very simple. Well, but let's be sure of one thing, sometime simple thing can be one of the most beautiful thing of life. We just have to value it! I guess now I start to understand why this blog is call WORTH. WORTH is about.. putting a value on simple thing, a value on ordinary stuff, a value on life.. Everything in your life WORTH something. Value it! Value it! So sleepy.. I really have to sleep before I start making no sense. (Posted January 1, 2007 05:22 AM)
1653 steps... That is the amount of steps needed from 101 to wrbee library, if I'm not driving.. catching the train. 11:20.. I'm eating my 3 stacks of sandwich with rocket, mushroom, beetroot, ham and cheese. What... it's too early.. I know, I know.. but I can't wait anymore.. It tastes so good. I'm back at uni.. Got a pressie from my Sis today.. In fact, I've been getting pressies and surprises everyday. More than she probably ever realized. Too hard to describe.. Reminded me of the story in the little prince book The Prince is travelling through the universe on a quest for wisdom after leaving his home planet Asteroid B-612. And this is my favourite part, when he lands on the planet Earth, he learns this "one sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes." He told the fox "The men where you live," said the little prince" raise five thousand roses in the same garden--and they do not find in it what they are looking for." "And yet what they are looking for could be found in one single rose, or in a little water." And the little prince added: "But the eyes are blind. One must look with the heart . . ." Thank you God for all the blessings that you've given to me everyday. (Posted January 1, 2007 04:56 PM)
Kiddo Books By the way... I just realized that both books "The Happiest Day of My Life" and "The Little Prince" are designed for kids hehehe. And yet those are my favourite books Love it :P.. Anyho, GAMBATE! (Posted January 1, 2007 05:02 PM)
The Sky Lady Hi again.. It's the 3rd January. I'm going to do the Hazard Perception test today. Hopefully I'll pass this test. I think I have contributed enough money to vic road, so please let this poor student pass. Yesterday we went to fiztroy st.. wanted to eat at Topolino, but it wasn't open. So we ate at the restaurant next door (not bad)....We went to meet a fren at her hotel after that. She is a very energetic, funny stewardess. Sometime, I wonder what life would be life on the sky? A lady once said "I'd never seen a prettier group of girls than the stewardesses when they line up before getting on-board". I guess they are like this group of birds getting ready to reach the sky, flying around the world. Sometime I wonder whether they'd ever find it hard to stick to their strict appearance requirements? Of course the sky has no limit, but will they ever get sick of the sky? If the sky is so high from here, is it lower from up there? Yes, the earth maybe fill up with millions of humans, but is any of us visible from up there? What a list of silly questions I have.. But you know what, I can be sure of one thing though, I guess when they're up there, they'll surely miss the toilet on earth. So value your toilet friends hehe.. (Posted January 2, 2007 05:32 PM)
No refund of exchange 12:30 I just received a delivery of 1800 KJ of sugars and fat that went straight to my tummy and hip. Yeap, I've signed it! I remember the receipt stated "No refund or exchange". So the only way to get rid of it is to do a one hour exercise. Hiks.. No more no more no more choc no more choc...! (Posted January 2, 2007 05:43 PM)
Silly thoughts 3.31Have you ever wonder what is the meaning of your favourite colour? Well, I've never given any thought to that. Thanks to my boring thesis that made me spent my three-thirtyaitys wondering around the web."In some cultures, such as the US, pink is the color of little girls. It represents sugar and spice and everything nice and delicate. Both red and pink denote love but while red is hot passion, pink is romantic and charming :P. Pink convey playfulness and tenderness." whazz.. am I playfull, full of tenderness hahaha. Pluz.. I'm not a little girl! Here's more, a few interesting language of Pink: In the pink - healthy Tickled pink - happy, content Pink collar - female office worker. What does this has to do with WORTH? huhuhu.. nothing, it's just my journey has been so pink lately !!! But Gambatee to everyone and have a colourful life!!!
(Posted January 3, 2007 08:48 PM)
(Posted January 3, 2007 08:48 PM)
Always in my mind I have nothing to write today but this: Love you God, love you mom and dad..my siss, bros.. everyone I love you :P. NEVER FORGET THAT! (Posted January 4, 2007 08:05 PM)
Time value! Hi again.. it's the 11th Jan 2007. We went to williamstown beach a few days ago. It's such a nice place. Love the skyline and love the warm atmospheres around that area. "My holiday is ending soon" I'm sitting here, sort of thinking about that word over and over again. It doesn't sound very right. cause I'm not having my holiday anymore..for the matter of fact, I am living my life like usual, going to uni and doing my other routines as per usual. Maybe because I seriously had a lot fun, visited those places that I had never visited before, filled up my everyday with lots and lots of activities and to have my cute sis around me.. going home from work was something that "I really look forward" everyday. So I told myself, "It was not the holiday wasn't it?" I guess it was the VALUE of the TIME that I spent with her... No matter who they are, seriously.. when you value your time that you spend with them, you're going to enjoy ur life and it's WORTH it.
Pluz.. never think that you have tomorrow or tomorrow or tomorrow to value those people that love u. I used to be this type of person who always took things for granted.. forgot about those people around me especially those who really love me so much. Being here in Oz really changed my perception. Loneliness can be bitter, but my fren once told me that bitterness itself is not all that bad cause those moments really made me learned to VALUE people more than ever. I learned to miss my family and frens and to think about them more than when I was with them. Well..life is still going on. I still have to pull out 3 papers before I started writing my thesis. Thanks to everyone for their support, I will really try hard to make it happen. I know mom is looking forward to see me. I know she will be proud to see her little girl graduate. I know dad can't wait to do some business with me. I know my niece is growing up and looking forward to see her auntie. I know a few of my frens are getting married this year and so I have to lose a couple kilos. And I know budi is going to learn the culinary arts well and so I'll have nice foods on my table every evening. I know that the Indonesian group is growing and that Jehovah will always bless this group of wonderful people. So may I always value every single moment of my life. And yes, it's WORTH it. GAMBATEE... (Posted January 12, 2007 03:28 AM)
MY WEEKEND We went karaoke on friday night! FUN hahaha...Never sang that many songs in my whole life. "I dun wanna miss a thing" tra la la.. It was a last minute decission to go there..Yup, in fact, we never really planned our activities..It just happened at that very second huhuhu.I hadn't really think about the day my sis had to leave home as well and ting, yesterday I had to drive her to the airport. No time and space for me to ponder about "farewell". All I had in my mind everytime when I woke up was to build a new sand castle, a nice one, a better one..and enjoy the moment. We went to Phillip Island on Saturday!! road trip with frens is always a nice and enjoyable thing to do. From the milk shakes n scramble egg in LANG2 to "It's a girl thing" in SAN REMO to the picnic at the old settlement in CHURCHILL ISLAND to the fish and chips in COWES to the sunset and the glittering waves of WOLLAMAI BEACH to the peak and volcano rock at THE NOBBIES and finally the PENGUIN PARADE! It's been great. This was actually my fifth visit to that island.. but I still felt like the first comer! It's always nice to share those fun with different people. It's certainly not the place, not "where" you go, but "who" you are going with that counts. Driving back to melbourne around midnites with lots of funny questions were fun too.. I guess at least I know someone's favourite pet is now "a penguin"!!! On sunday...We went to have lunch at williamstown beach with En.. Great food! Great view! We spent most of our times walking around the city before we head back to 101 then to the airport just to meet the MRS CRUELLA!!! Everything is still very fresh! Now 101 is back to its empty state. It may sounds sad and blue.. It will take a few days before I'll get used to it. Yep.. but the sand castles project is still on! And I will make the best out of it! HAVE fun and Work hard cutee sis! Him Nae! (Posted January 14, 2007 10:55 PM)
Paying attention to details We finally signed the copyright of my third paper. Three down and I can't wait to get the news from my next papers.. Eniwei, it so hot today, reaching 39 in the afternoon and the temperature is still rising! I just had a tuna sandwich with rocket, mushroom, sundried tomato and mustard. Yummy.. Have to wake up extra 5 minutes to prepare it, miss you my sis :P. I think it takes longer than just a few days ups..Eniwei...this few days, something happen to me that I started to pay attention to details. Few interesting facts that I've never really gave any thought to: You'll need 8291 steps to circle albert park lake from 101... The lake is drying up because of the weather, but it still looks beautifull with the city skyline and evening sunset. If I have to leave this place one day, I'm going to miss jogging at alby. The main ingredient of rexona is "metal" - silver in liquid form. Metal is toxic to bacteria.. So when you sweat, those bacteria won't be able to grow and produce unpleasant smell. How's the safety of this metal on our body.. well, I'll find out later. Okay.. time out, back to my work. GAMBATE!
(Posted January 15, 2007 07:00 PM)
One of those day...Almost the whole melbourne was without power a couple hourse ago, after a bushfire in the north-east of the state which knocked out vital transmission lines connecting Victoria to the national power grid. Traffic lights were off, trams and trains had to stop operating. Melbourne was in a chaos for a few hours and yes, I was trap in the middle of the chaos. What a day! Stucked in the traffic for hours and when I finally reached home, I couln't get into my own apartment cause the gate just wouln't open without power. And when I finnaly parked my car, there was a total blackout inside the apartment, the lift was not working and so I have to use the stairs. At 42C without the power, there was really nothing much to do, but to lay on bed, annoyed huhuhuhu. It's seriously boiling! (Posted January 16, 2007 12:52 AM )
Naming my Chicken Finally I gave my chicken a name, "Archie"... Kewl isn't it? It sounds very european. It is actually named after the owner hoho.. but you have to call my chicken in british accent. Strong emphasis on the "H"..heheheh, good nite melbourne :P (Posted January 16, 2007 06:27 AM)
Reading newspaper Power cut threat remains, eight home in the suburban melbourne burn, Maria Sharapova had to play under extreme heat in yesterday Australian Open... hohoho what a chaos! Good news is petrol price is going down soon and Subway has a new falvour steak, but it cost a dollar more expensive :( . It's 35oC today.. despite of the hot weather, there will be thunderstorm and rain! At least I will stay indoor for the rest of the day.. I have a very high aim today. I'm going to complete the results section of Paper 8. Melbourne chaotic situation shouldn't affect me...GAMBATE! (Posted January 16, 2007 04:06 PM)
Four down.. Many things have gone from bad to worse... I have been very strong-headed and selfish. I can't forever be that kind of person. Small things upset me so much recently. I hadn't recover since my sis left. Couldn't really focus my mind. I was lost! I had many fears about my future. Felt tired about my PhD thingy. I cooked and none of my cooking tasted good. Failed my driving test and had many other failures here and there. Well.. it's certainly not my very best week. But I've driven all those angers out yesterday. Yep..they are all out, as from now on.. it's time to live not for myself. I have to put my focus on spiritual things. The talk on sunday really woke me up. "Your word is the lamp to my foot and the light to my roadway". I certainly need that lamp and light to get out of my selfish life. Today... I woke up..called my mom dad and as usual, I felt so much better after that. Good things start to overflow me. My fourth paper has been accepted for publication. Is this just a coincidence or this is the blessing for my new resolution. If you ever feel that you're in a dark tunnel. Dun give up and do nothing. Do something...be positive..have a waiting attitude and be patient... try to look at things from a different angle. And dun forget to use the "lamp" and the "light".. U'll get your way out of darkness. Posted January 22, 2007 04:59 PM
Weekend Getaway From Ballarat to Grampian..My long weekend has been fantastic.. Driving a total of 700 km with my L-plate to a region 2200 ft above the sea, if that was not Legendary, what would you call that? It was all girls outing..It was probably the last trip of my "end of the year" journey. The three sisters, me and da'k oni. Well, oni left oz a couple weeks ago, but we felt that she was still with us through out the whole journey. Through her smses and her as usual "cracking" "shocking" statements. CAT WOMAN huhuh Our first day in Ballarat was fun. It was when we discovered that we had the tallent of the gold-miners. After hours and hours of digging and sifting sand along the creek at sovereign hill we actually managed to get a bottle of GOLD. The feeling of spotting a speck of GOLD in a bucket of sand was certainly great. It was a better boost than cafein that kept me awake on the way to Grampian. The trip to Grampian was fantastic. We were welcomed by a group of Kangaroos.. It was nerveracking to drive along Ararat freeway as you never knew when they would jump across the street. This place certainly worth the visit. Breathtaking views, beautiful waterfalls, challenging bush walking. We were totally soaked by the mountains fresh air and the views. Thanks so much for the trip girls and of course, Thank you God for creating this magnificent beautiful world and friendship.
Posted January 27, 2007 04:40 AM
Posted January 27, 2007 04:40 AM
End of my Funding I really dunno how to write what I have in my head at the moment. I'm not sad, but I'm quite angry. Bottom line is, I might not get my scholarship from March onward. Why? I dunno why. There seems to be some politic going on that I'm not aware of. I feel numb! Ever since they approved my extension last December, I thought everything has been settled. Only now I found out that there is this tricky twist here and there.... I really want to scream so loud. Well but it's not the end of the world. It just annoys me so much that I've to finish my PhD like this! Posted February 1, 2007 09:16 PM
Another hill I can't beleive that I can still stay these calm. I was so scarred but you make me feel so calm. You don't even have to do a single thing.. just by being there to listen, it makes everything so easy to bare. I'll send pancakes by DHL deh... hahahI never thought that bitterness can taste so sweet sometime. It can make u feel so humble.. makes you realize that that you can't win everything.. make you remember not to feel so proud of yourself.. make you realize of your imperfection.. For me, these few days really made me see that I've been so blessed. Almost everyone is back now.. Have to visit Lulu and wendy every now and then. Love to continue the bible study wt them. In fact, last week, I actually called on a few interested people and will possibly start a few more bible studies. This is the job that never dissapoint me. A secure job wt guarantee of happiness. Love you God.
Posted February 2, 2007 03:30 AM
Posted February 2, 2007 03:30 AM
To focus on the positive side.. This morning, I actually received a great news. I'm going to give a talk about cheese at melbourne exhibition centre in June. My abstract was accepted and they invite me to give a presentation. Well.. I probably won't have any income for the next few months. But I can still teach, do a few lab demonstration work, cleaning maybe, work in restaurants while I'm finishing my thesis. I'm sure there will be some ways out. And ultimately I have to start hunting for Job.. hahaha. Never see myself so happy. The lesson is, in the middle of difficulties.. find opportunities..Don't let yourself be consumed by negativity. Move on! Him Nae Him.. gambate!!! Posted February 2, 2007 03:41 AM
Morning melboune..I would be lying if I said, I haven't been worry about me not getting any extension for my scholarship. I tried to get myself bussy with housework, with my paper and spiritual activity. Washed and ironed all my bro clothes yesterday. But at the end of the day it was still very hard to escape, hard to stay positive. Well... I'm not giving up to no hope though. In fact, I'm starting my plan B. I will start teaching next month. Microbiology. Phiuh... I dunno whether I still remember the stuff that I learned 6 years ago.. But who cares. I start hunting for Job as well. There is one job in western sydney. Good pay good company.. but they need someone now and that's impossible...Pluz I dunno whether I can leave melbourne. My COMFORT ZONE. So I told my supervisor that I will think about it.. There's one company in mind that I'm looking forward to send my resume... I told my supervisor about it, and we are going to give a try. Well..so far, that's my plan B. It's a bit scarry when things change so drasctically just in one weekend. All these things I have never really planned before. I just have to try harder and harder and enjoy my journey..
Posted February 4, 2007 04:46 PM
Posted February 4, 2007 04:46 PM
Miss miss miss.. I miss so many people at the moment. Eniwei, the pace of my life is getting faster and faster. I guess because I'm so bussy with so many things and time just fly...Phiu Tomorrow, we are going to visit National Foods, the company who make berry juice, yoplait, pura milk etc.. I dunno for what, for me.. I just want to see how's life out there :P. So far, things are not running as schedulled. Falling behind on so many things.. Oh well, wat to do.... I miss my holiday. Miss going to williamstown beach after uni to have gelati.. miss watching DVDsssssss ehhehe. Posted February 6, 2007 11:41 PM
Full lisence I got my Australian Full Lisence and I started driving alone this morning. hihiihi.. I realized that it's actually quite hard to concentrate on the road when you are driving alone. Your brain tend to wonder around everywhere though your body is still in the car and your hand is still sticking on the stirring wheel. I guess I need sometime before I get used to it. I'm writing my thesis chapter at the moment. It's been very slow.. Next month, I will start teaching a microbiology class (dun even want to think about it) and I gt prepare my abstract and talk for my presentation soon. Pluz I have to attend an exhibition in April with my dad. All these really add up and leave me with no room to relax. Well.. I think I better get back to my writing then. Happy2... enjoy the journey. Posted February 14, 2007 08:19 PM
Rainbows Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high. There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby. Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue, and the dreams that you dare to dream, really do come true. Some day I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me. Where troubles melt like lemondrops, away above the chimney tops, that's where you'll find me. Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow. Why then, oh why can't I? If happy little bluebirds fly, beyond the rainbow. Why, oh why can't I?
Posted February 19, 2007 04:15 AM
Posted February 19, 2007 04:15 AM
Applying for jobs deg deg deg deg deg deg!
I think I'm going to apply for my first professional Job ever! I dun even know the name of the company. But I have prepared a resume and guess what. I'm going to send it. I still have a lot of things to do on my plate at this moment, but I have to secure something for the next few months. So we'll see what happen next.
Posted February 19, 2007 03:29 PM
I think I'm going to apply for my first professional Job ever! I dun even know the name of the company. But I have prepared a resume and guess what. I'm going to send it. I still have a lot of things to do on my plate at this moment, but I have to secure something for the next few months. So we'll see what happen next.
Posted February 19, 2007 03:29 PM
Early morning thoughts I wake up very early almost everyday now :P and I really enjoy the morning breeze. It just, so many things happened and I found that the dusk or the morning is the best time for me to refresh my mind, clear my brain and to stay positive. To be positive even when the world promotes ideas that are different to you. Be positive even when goodness and kindness are perceived as weakness of the world. It is sad that we all have our bad inclination, our imperfection remains, but we have the power to direct our mind, will and our heart. Through many ups and downs, beleive in love.. even when you fail yourself, Love never fail.. have love for one another. Posted February 20, 2007 02:09 PM
Mount Everest, I'm tired! I want to leave my weights and fly free unbounded. I dunno how to do it indeed. Mount Everest.. you are way too high and too steep for me to conquer. Or are you not? Or it's me with all my weights that slow me down? I'm running out of breath. If I'm still out here climbing, it's all because I have to finish what I started. I hope I still have my last breath to spare. Please give me the strenght and the power even if all this WORTH nothing anymore. Posted February 25, 2007 01:52 AM
Happiness is the journey!
Wow wow ups and downs.I dun really want to think about it anymore. Want to feel funny and fun again. Let's grill the world! I found this story from the AWAKE very encouraging! I hope it will inspire everyone as it has inspired me! Forty-five minutes of meditation led to a similar conclusion on the part of Dr. Wayne W. Dyer. In his book Pulling Your Own Strings, Dyer writes:
“One of the biggest turning points in my life came many years ago when I happened to spend forty-five minutes supervising a study hall as a substitute teacher. On the back bulletin board of that room were written the words, ‘Success is a journey, not a destination.’ “I studied those words for the full forty-five minutes, letting them sink into my very soul. Up until that day, I had, in fact, viewed life as a series of destinations and events. Graduations, diplomas, degrees, marriages, childbirths, promotions and other similar events were all destinations, and I was going from stop to stop. “I vowed right there in that room that I was going to stop evaluating happiness on the basis of arriving at destinations and instead see the whole of my life as a continuing journey, each moment of which was there for me to enjoy. That key study-hall assignment gave this teacher one of life’s most important lessons: Don’t evaluate your life in terms of achievements, trivial or monumental, along the way. If you do, you will be destined to the frustration of always seeking out other destinations, never allowing yourself actually to be fulfilled. Whatever you achieve, you will immediately have to plan your next achievement so that you will have a new gauge of how successful and happy you are. “Instead, wake up and appreciate everything you encounter along your path. Enjoy the flowers that are there for your pleasure. Tune in to the sunrise, the little children, the laughter, the rain and the birds. Drink it all in, rather than waiting to get to some always-future point where it will be all right for you to relax. Indeed, success—even life itself—is nothing more than moments to enjoy, one at a time. When you understand this principle, you will stop evaluating your happiness on the basis of achievements, and instead look upon the whole trip of life as something to be happy about. Or to sum it up, there is no way to happiness, because happiness is the way.”
Posted February 26, 2007 03:54 AM
Wow wow ups and downs.I dun really want to think about it anymore. Want to feel funny and fun again. Let's grill the world! I found this story from the AWAKE very encouraging! I hope it will inspire everyone as it has inspired me! Forty-five minutes of meditation led to a similar conclusion on the part of Dr. Wayne W. Dyer. In his book Pulling Your Own Strings, Dyer writes:
“One of the biggest turning points in my life came many years ago when I happened to spend forty-five minutes supervising a study hall as a substitute teacher. On the back bulletin board of that room were written the words, ‘Success is a journey, not a destination.’ “I studied those words for the full forty-five minutes, letting them sink into my very soul. Up until that day, I had, in fact, viewed life as a series of destinations and events. Graduations, diplomas, degrees, marriages, childbirths, promotions and other similar events were all destinations, and I was going from stop to stop. “I vowed right there in that room that I was going to stop evaluating happiness on the basis of arriving at destinations and instead see the whole of my life as a continuing journey, each moment of which was there for me to enjoy. That key study-hall assignment gave this teacher one of life’s most important lessons: Don’t evaluate your life in terms of achievements, trivial or monumental, along the way. If you do, you will be destined to the frustration of always seeking out other destinations, never allowing yourself actually to be fulfilled. Whatever you achieve, you will immediately have to plan your next achievement so that you will have a new gauge of how successful and happy you are. “Instead, wake up and appreciate everything you encounter along your path. Enjoy the flowers that are there for your pleasure. Tune in to the sunrise, the little children, the laughter, the rain and the birds. Drink it all in, rather than waiting to get to some always-future point where it will be all right for you to relax. Indeed, success—even life itself—is nothing more than moments to enjoy, one at a time. When you understand this principle, you will stop evaluating your happiness on the basis of achievements, and instead look upon the whole trip of life as something to be happy about. Or to sum it up, there is no way to happiness, because happiness is the way.”
Posted February 26, 2007 03:54 AM
Take it one thing at a time..
One step at time. You'll soon find yourself far in front
One chapter at a time. You'll soon make a book out of it
One day at a time. You'll soon see the years passing by
One task at a time. You'll soon see yourself finishing your job
One goal at a time. You'll be on your way to fulfill ur dream
But what is more important is enjoy the steps the journey before you reach somewhere.
Have fun guysss. Posted February 27, 2007 03:56 PM
Close to the new Chapter of Life Movie for the week. Well happy feet so cute, pursue of happiness.. mm too deep. TV serries! HOUSE is still on the top of the list follow by NCIS, desperate housewife, ugly betty, grey..OC dah abis huh, miss the last episode of the season. Meal of the week, I hate to say this but the pizza that I had last at lapocheta really taste so good. Excercise of the week, I managed to pull myself up early for 3 yoga session las week ahha. My thesis chapters.. half way through my lit review, it's not gonna be super thesis, but I can live with that! Phiu... Oh ya, btw.. I clean up my lab. No big deal huh. For me it's a big deal. After spending officially 3 years at VU, cleaning that bench for new student to use, I hope someone understand. Eniwei, took a picture after that cleaning. Was looking at it for a few moments and I realize.. soon, it's time for a new chapter. But really have to go through the transition period dulu. TWINk.. brukkkkkk, can I skip it. Well..looking forward for the coming week. Although it's a bit frightening. Him Nae. Miss a few friends so much. Stay colourful! dun forget to put on banana boat, Yup! I will... him nae! smile smile smile! A heart that is joyfull does good as a curer.
Posted March 4, 2007 03:28 AM
Chicken is teaching deg deg deg..Today I'm demonstrating for my first microbilogy clas. Serem deh. Rada nervous juga. I had to tie my hair back, put on my geeky blue glasses. I think I look pretty good as a demonstrator now hahah. I'm still wearing short pant and blue polo, colourful socks hehe, dunno whether they will recognize me as their demonstrator or just fellow students. Eniwei, hope I have fun today. Him nae Gambate to everyone!
Posted March 5, 2007 02:19 PM
Posted March 5, 2007 02:19 PM
All done.. two classes. Tiring. In one of the class, all girls.. In the master class, all boys.. hahaha. Everything went smoothly, it wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. When I looked at the motion of the bacteria on the slide I was so excited like kids. My students were looking at me, probably feeling amussed that their demonstartor was acting like a kid. Next time, I have to take care of my charisma. Have to stay kewl and not getting excited easily. Eniwei, I kinda enjoy demonstrating in micro class now, hope it goes well for the rest of the year. Now have to get back to my borring thesis ehe, Gambate frens! Posted March 5, 2007 07:59 PM
Not ready to make nice Another week dah lewat, another week is coming. Maybe I should stop saying this huh!It wasn't a terrific week for Indo with the earthquake in Padang and plane crash in Yogya. Melbournian is still strugling with on going water restriction. Car accidents rate is rising over the long weekend, cyclone in other part of the state and the list is going on and on. Well but it didn't stop us from being positive, did it? Can't complain really ehhe. Our ministry this morning was terrific. For me, it help me to focus on life in a big picture. Thank God for this wonderful opportunity. We just came back from witnessing. I kinda burn my arms. A pay off from forgetting banana boat. Budi is cooking for me this evening, so I kinda enjoying myself, checking out the latest grammy winner - dixie chicks. Love their song, 'not ready to make nice'.
I always love songs that express anger, frustation and reality. It reminds me of what Anna Nalik said 'we should take everything out from inside us, all the pressure so that it no longer stays inside and threatens the life that it belongs to'. Expressing our pressure in a positive way is the way to go. In songs, in writing, in prayer. I beleive that it is important, because if we're carrying those burden inside us when we're doing our daily matter, we might snap or express our pressure not at a right place. Instead of getting out of frustations, we're bound to more and more yoke. But of course, prayer is always the way to go! Remember that the soverign lord almighty will always be there to listen to us. Throw your burden to HIM mate! SO let's clear all the worries from the past few days and wake up fresh for the coming week. Gambate to everyone. Posted March 9, 2007 11:48 PM By the way, I think I'm going to have a king meal today! It smells soooooo good. ohohoho Posted March 9, 2007 11:50 PM
Another week is here...It's been a fantastic week. It was a bigggg weekend from thrus to sunday for the Indonessian group. It was tiring but like eagles, I'm pretty sure everyone got a tremendous lift-up after putting the marvelous effort to go out on the ministry over the past few days. So back to uni, o ow.. it's monday. I feel so lazy, but if I stop just for a while, I know I'm just prolonging my time to go home. So I have to keep fighting. I keep talking about this piles of work that I have. It's bad huh. I shouldn't get intimidated by the amount of works or the piles of challenges that I have to go through. Relax and try to do it one by one, eventually I know I will get there... might take a while, but there's no reason to stop as it won't get me anywhere. It's not about worth anymore. For me now, it's about how I can still enjoy this few bits regardless whether it's worth it or not. Enjoy it...
Gambate, him nae for the coming week. Song of the week, lots of missy higgins last week. Grey and desperate hwife were pretty interesting. But Brother and sisters was taking their places. House was still number one! As for my micro class.. it's getting tougher as I had to fail someone's report last week. Phiuh.. Melbourne weather was everywhere last week. I really have to wash my terribly dusty car. Other than that.. have fun guys. Lots of smiles frens. Cici Him Nae!!
Posted March 18, 2007 03:04 PM
Posted March 18, 2007 03:04 PM
Hi.. hi... It's been another fantastic, horiffic, exciting week. Fantastic as I finnaly almost fulfill my 50 hours service for auxiliary pionerring this month. Fantastic week after the visit of the circuit oversear. Exciting cause I started gym gym last week and instead of lossing weight, I gain weight!!!! Not exciting huh! But I'm not giving up. Exciting cause we're moving to williamstown, but sad at the same time cause we're leaving many good frens at st.kilda cong. Exciting cause I just have my hair cut, feel better now. Really have to take care of my precious stuff! Horific cause there were accidents here and there, explossion in burnley tunnel that claimed three life and gas leak that forced the evacuation of hundreds of people at glenferrie road. Horific week, just another extra reminder that we need to be extra cautious when using the road and be gratefull that we've been in sound health everyday. Another week is coming. Still have lots and lots and piles of work to do. Him Nae! Live your life to the fullest and pray pray....:P
Posted March 25, 2007 04:16 PM
Posted March 25, 2007 04:16 PM
SPELLING My spelling is really bad... I struggle to write 'Horrific'. haha, how can I become a lecturer if I don't exactly know how to pronounce and write words properly :P. Sipping my yummy hot coffee and listening to 101.1.. phiuh it's another morning. I just read an article about Anna Nicole Smith..Kinda wierd, but there's something fishy behind her death. Well dare not speculate but frens, We really have to fight toward having a drug free environment! Help each other to get off the hook! And not only that, beware of this other hook -- MONEY... the love of money is the root of all sort of injurious thing. Having covering and sustenance we should be contend :P...It's not WHAT you have but WHO you have that is important! Eniwei, looking forward for today. HIm NAE!!!!! Gambate!!! Jia Yiu :P
Posted March 26, 2007 03:02 PM
Posted March 26, 2007 03:02 PM
I dont care whether you can spell or not... but i love you juz the way u are. mwah mwah and sorry yo to mess up ur blog hehe biasanya kan cuman dd yg write all the comments...
Posted March 27, 2007 05:52 AM
Posted March 27, 2007 05:52 AM
Finnaly a comment haha.. actually I would love to pick up some comments for this blog. Yeah... finally :PPlease contribute ya. I was reading some of my old story book yesterday. I would love to put it up here one day. I wrote about colour in our life about 3 years ago. Something that goes like this, 'I've got what I've always wanted, a scholarship for a PhD, stepping stone for career, frens, family. I love where I live, the lake, the park surrounding the tiny little appartment where I live.. yup, I got a degree and wonderful life. But I still feel that something is missing. Have I been painting hard but forgotten about the one important aspect of my life?' It goes longer than that.. but at the end I sort of said, ' I know what it is. It's the colour, I didn't paint my painting with colour. I forget to love what I paint, to feel what I have." Hihi.. can't remember exactly what is my conclusion. But reading those thing is like a kick in the butt for me. Waky waky lyd. For whatever you're doing now.. rememember to make your painting colourful and meaningful, rather than going around doing lots lots of stuff and forgetting the important essence of it -> LOVE.. Cheerss everyone, Him Nae, GAMBATE for today
Posted March 28, 2007 05:37 PM
Posted March 28, 2007 05:37 PM
I coulnd't wake up early this morning. I was so exhausted and so didn't have a chance to drink a cup of coffee, read newspaper, write blogs reflecting over my past few days or surf around. But I am at uni doing all those stuff right now.
Road Trips My weekend was great..went to Wilsons Promontory National Park. This island, Yiruk or Wamoom 'the indigenous name', have some of Victoria's best beaches -- untouched, raw, beautiful beaches. It has cool shaded rainforest gullies. We had a chance to go for a mini hiking, found really kewl reptiles, super red birds, fishes, porcupine, wombats etc. If you were there, you would feel that you were at the Lord's of the RING movie's scene. Driving around the island was so enjoyable, we saw lots of cloud soaked mountain peaks, Mt Oberons etc, lots of brokoli type tree, elephant shape rock (<--apang version). Visiting Tidal river was a very unique experience as well. This river is so colourful because of the red orange mould, green fungus that grow on the rocks making this place so colourful and unique. A lot of people set their camps alongside the river. From there we went to this place called 'Squeeky beach'. We were told that the sand on this beach is not a normal stone sand. It is actually quartz-stone-sand. That is why it is really white like rice flour and not only that the sand actually make a lot of squeeky sounds. We didn't beleive it untill we stepped on the white quartz sands and squeek squeek squeek.. ahha. This island is also famous for the shell middens or deposits which date back thousands of years. We collected some of those.. I mean, not me.. hihi, while Budi, Ings and the rest were going around looking for sea shells, I was lying, sleeping on the soft sand, of course with umbrella covering me from the beautiful sun shine. It was ridiculous huh as I was the only person on Venus Beach with umbrella on top of me. Lots of fun, I really enjoyed the short break. Wonderful get away. OH I forgot to mention about us almost hit a cow that was crossing the road! It was so close! Driving at 100k, there was no way I could have stop on time and not hitting the cow that suddenly ran down the hill at one of the hidden road intersection. In a split second I decided to accelerate and change lane and just missed the cow for few metres I guess. Not only that, it was a two way, two lane road. Another car was actually coming toward my direction when I tried to avoid the cow. Terrifying really. But thank GOd, nothing happened. Now back to uni, another week is coming. Really looking forward to fix my papers and send them back. And ultimately finish my thesis. Could not have asked for more fun than this week. I really wished a few people were there with us though. Phone reception was terrible. We were basically without mobile phone for the past 2 days in the isolated island. My song of the week would be 'Suddenly I see' KT Tunstall. 'Suddenly I see, this is all I want to be.. hahah' Gambatee and him nae for everyone. LOve u all Posted April 1, 2007 06:33 PM
Good morning frens...Unlike every other monday morning, I'm actually at home enjoying my coffee and reading a few articles from Awake magazine. I know in the next 48 hours I'll be spending my time finishing my 2 papers. It doesn't sound fun at all.. but Oh well.
There was this interesting article in the Awake magazine that captured my attention. Discussing about an eposide called a Vasovagal reaction. It is a malfunction of a body system that is meant to regulate blood circulation, such as when you change position from sitting to standing. It is a condition where you can suddenly experience a black-out because the blood supply lessens to your head and your brain runs short of oxygen. I think some of you know what I mean. Well if you think you've experienced these symptoms before, relax. When it happen, stop doing whatever you're doing, just incase you loss ur balance, fall or faint and hit something. The article suggests this..'If it's possible, lie down and prop your legs up and this will prevents your blood from draining into your legs. hehehe...' And yep, you'll be fine in a few minutes. Why am I writing this info here. :P I thought it's interesting.
Live it Right! I really miss home and can't wait to feel free. I have been spending the past few days with the indonessian group. Met many interesting calls.. it's trully a priviledge to be able to serve God. Still love the gym so much and I know when I get back to uni this wednesday, I have to hit the gym hard as I've been piling up those calories in my body over this long weekend. Well, it's all about feeling good, feeling better, healthy and strong. Can't wait to see what's coming next. On the table, the next few days gonna be borring, but of course I have the power to live it right, live it fun and yep to make it colourfull. So him nae!
Posted April 8, 2007 05:43 PM
Posted April 8, 2007 05:43 PM
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Posted April 10, 2007 04:49 AM
REBORN..Oh well.. Oh yes, I snapped yesterday. I have to admit that I put too much expectation for myself over the long weekend. I didn't really finish my two papers and I felt so terrible. Silly! But it felt good, releasing those tension and pressure inside me. I'm sorry for those who has to put up with me. It means a lot to me, to know that even if the worse has to happen me, I will always have the support and the love from them. Yeap...I'm almost there. Before I realize it, I know my journey as a PhD student is ending soon. Although this last few steps have been so tough, I know I have to finish it right and appreciate every single moment that I have left. Yup.. I'm not going to give up. I'll try to make it fun. Werribee.. hihihihi :P I'm coming.
Posted April 11, 2007 04:25 AM
Dreams and Visions Trip trip So happy. Just finished chatting wif my sis and few frens. Talked about dreams and visions. Looking forward to many great and wonderful things in the future. Well I know I have to enjoy the present and expectation fall shorts. YUP.. but I'm just tooo excited ahha. Just the thought about the holiday make us feel happy oredy. And that's our happy 'present'. If we really get to fulfill our dream in the future, that's a bonus :P. Appreciate why we smile today and if we get another smile tomorrow, that's an extra blessing.Well sis, here is what I thought about some of the lyrics in the song Chassing cars.
This song has a very unique lyric. The song shows uncommon vulnerability. I'm sure we've been in this situation before. The line, “I don’t quite know How to say, How I feel…” potrays our vulnerability as human, especially when it comes to feeling. And yet how wonderful this song has been in potraying many people feeling.
“Those three words, are said too much, they’re not enough…” reminds me of how sometime mere words aren’t enough to relay our love and gratitude for the person that we love. And yet we never stop saying those words cause that's how we feel even if those words make us feel vulnerable.
“All that I am, All that I ever was, Is here in your perfect eyes, they’re all I can see.” Reminds me of how we all need to look at the big picture. Don't be quick to judge. Swift about hearing and be patient. When you love someone.. you can accept him as he is. All that he is, all that he was and all that he'll be.My favourite would be the this “If I lay here, If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?” Reminds me that sometime we don't even have to do big things, go to big places or try hard. We just have to do simple thing wif our family or frens. It's the matter of whether we appreciate that tiny moment or not. Moment like "Chassing cars.. " might not seem to be a big deal. I'm not talking about literal chassing cars but I am referring to those activity that may seems to have no purpose but wasting time. Yep.. just don't overlook those moments. You'll be surprise, it may bring you to a place where you will forget about the world, your pain, your hills, where nothing else matter.. hehhe that's all. Hope my review doesn't sound crazy :PAnother week is coming.. let's give it our best.
Posted April 15, 2007 02:42 AM
Posted April 15, 2007 02:42 AM
Few more analysis to add about the song hehe:
Forget what we're told,Before we get too old,Show me a garden that's bursting into life (I think it means that we have to grab every opportunity and live life to the fullest before we get too old. That is why they said "show me a garden that's bursting into life") Another one:I don't know where,Confused about how as well, Just know that these things will never change for us at all (Although the future is highly unknown but all that we are sure is that "Love" will never change at all if we keep having faith) I love this song!!! Snow Patrol rocksss!!! Dedek rockkksss!!!
Posted April 15, 2007 07:58 PM
Forget what we're told,Before we get too old,Show me a garden that's bursting into life (I think it means that we have to grab every opportunity and live life to the fullest before we get too old. That is why they said "show me a garden that's bursting into life") Another one:I don't know where,Confused about how as well, Just know that these things will never change for us at all (Although the future is highly unknown but all that we are sure is that "Love" will never change at all if we keep having faith) I love this song!!! Snow Patrol rocksss!!! Dedek rockkksss!!!
Posted April 15, 2007 07:58 PM
Puzzles Nice song...Cici rocksssss too :P The beauty about a song is that we can all relate to the different aspects, dif angles of the lyric. When you put those puzzles together, then they tell u a story. This life certainly has many things to offer. I have seen and experienced maybe 0.1% of it. Yep..there's still another 99.9% out there. Only when you share your vision and open yourself to other people's thought then you'll see much of the 99.9%. Happy looking...
Posted April 15, 2007 08:18 PM
Posted April 15, 2007 08:18 PM
Yeah.. I'm well now.. I should say, my engine is 95% fixed. Last week has been very tough. But I'm glad I've gone through it. I'm not on medication anymore. Just waiting to get my other 5% back and I'm ready for any run hahah... and so back to my normal monday morning blog writting. Miss my mommy when I was sick, so kiddo :P. And of cuz.. miss cici lotzzz. She choose me over scramble eggs lor haha. What about over fried mushroom at TGIF? I bet she couldn't decide now :P. Well nothing new to write. Other than ROVE is back on TV, Christina Aguilera is going to have a concert in July and Missy Higgins is releasing her second album "on a clear night" yesterday. My bos is going away for a month :PP. The pangs family is moving house this thrusday and little ing2 started working at McD across the road a couple wk ago. Dr Yang and Burke were not in their good term of relationship. I can't wait to see what will happen next. "When loyalty is breeched, faith is lost" It's so true, but I hope love prevail. As for me.. oh la la, didn't do anything last wk, but to feel better today is a blessing. And I'm so looking forward to this week. Give it my best shot and I hope I'll have many smiles to share next week. Him Nae!
Posted April 29, 2007 06:24 PM
Posted April 29, 2007 06:24 PM
More and more hills...I'm starving, so I'm going to make this short! I'm shortlisted for the Malcom Bird competition at AIFST conference this year. Too bad I live in Melb where the conference is going to be held, or otherwise they would cover the cost of my plane ticket and accomodation, registration and everything. Hiks. All I get now is just a free rego. huhu.. But to be nominated for this award means a great deal for me. It's going to be my last chance to sell myself for a job and to present the result of my research from the past 3.5 years. It's like showing ur friends all the photographs that you've taken during your long holiday trip. This presentation gonna be the photographs of my research over my long PhD journey.
Wrapping up I still have a few more months to wrap up my thesis. It's getting very intense and the nearer it is to the finish line, I have less and less confident in myself and my works. Looking back at the big picture, I haven't really achieve anything great in my research. I feel nervous. All I want now is to pass my Thesis. Phiuh..It has been very tough. Step by step, inch by inch. I hope in the next few months I'll not be writting about this anymore, but my HOLIDAY. Let's enjoy this journey. Posted May 3, 2007 07:26 PM
COUNT DOWN!!!Three more months. MALCOM BIRD - THESISI'm so blank. But I have to get it done! Have no time to play around anymore. I'm terrified! Good news is, mom and dad will be here to cheer me up. No more teaching and it will be just writting writting writting conference conference conference thesis thesis thesis and ultimately big big sleeping after that. Bad news is, winter is here and it's soo cold. I just got a present, a pair of new me2you slippers hahaa. Well, that'll keep my feet warm for the next couple of months.
Last week, we had choc fountain party with the group, a few supper nights and buffet with pangs. Actually after the choc party everyone was getting sick, sore throat, coughing and cold..pretty bad huh. This week i really have the obligation to burn my excess fat. Oki doki.. another week is coming. Yeah, Am going to Missy Higgins this week and writting writting writting. Wish everyone the best!! Him Nae Him!!!
Posted May 27, 2007 03:46 PM
Last week, we had choc fountain party with the group, a few supper nights and buffet with pangs. Actually after the choc party everyone was getting sick, sore throat, coughing and cold..pretty bad huh. This week i really have the obligation to burn my excess fat. Oki doki.. another week is coming. Yeah, Am going to Missy Higgins this week and writting writting writting. Wish everyone the best!! Him Nae Him!!!
Posted May 27, 2007 03:46 PM
And yet more challenges I'm back..Yeah, they let me write again. I thought I have reached my comments quota. The conference, thesis.. it's all done, finally huh! I'm glad, happy, excited. Hold on a second... what am I trying to say here. That's not right! Stop the running away! Okay, okay I'm angry..Seriously, emotionally I'm not at my very top.. 'Angry' is the word. 'Up set' sooo negative negative negative. I can't beleive I end up my journey like this. Feeling angry. I was upset with my students for not doing their job well. And although it was not totally their fault, I just couldn't help myself from feeling upset at them. And it's bad! I'm angry at the head of school for taking his own sweet time just to sign a document. I'm angry with so many people for no big reasons. And worse to that is.. I'm angry at myself for being angry. How could that happen? I lost myself somewhere.. I have to find 'me' back. I know I'll smile again. And this time, it's going to be a sincere smile. The happy me
Posted August 26, 2007 09:09 PM
Posted August 26, 2007 09:09 PM
Finally I never thought I would end this blog. Hmm actually It's not over yet. I'm just planning to continue my journey in another blog 'AMAZEing journey' (PS. it's not amazing journey, it's aMAZEing journey. Before I ended this blog, I thought it's fair to at least update what's been happening to me since my last post. I got the Malcolm Bird award. It was a surprise, a shock!! A few months after that I submitted my thesis and started working. And many things have been happening since then. At the begining of this blog, I wrote "I want this journey written and so one day, before I give up being a scientist, I will read this all over again and see whether it is worth going on or giving up". Honestly, there were many times when I actually wanted to give up everything. This blog, however, have helped me to look at the big picture of my journey. It helped me to reflect on my past and though it was not a perfect blog, and was not written in perfect English, it's purely my journey. Keep enduring, stay positive and happy as let's continue to another AMAZEING journey.
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